Keep The Ball Rolling

Work hard, graduate, get a job that pays well, build my parents a mansion, go to a vacation in Zanzibar or any place, buy whatever my head thinks of, build my own mansion,with a swimming pool in it, be this sassy lady with nice outfits, spiced with a gym (wow). All these were just dreams that I thought will start unfolding immediately I finished campus but God has a way of showing you He is the boss by telling you (indirectly) to sit on the floor and wait for His commands. 

These dreams are never achieved however we want them. They take sometime and only the lucky ones get them their way. I remember looking down upon those who walked around in the village without jobs after graduation and not knowing my time is on its way(karma). ‘Tarmacing” is so real! I always look back and just laugh at how we were encouraged to work hard so as to secure good jobs in future and listening to “Someni vijana muongeze juu ya bidii mwisho wa kusoma utapata kazi nzuri sana” which is a big lie by the way; there are no jobs out here (only for the lucky ones), and just so you know, I am on my a millionth book looking for the truth in it.

Life is interesting sometimes, you can work really hard but get nothing out of it, other times you put no effort but get everything you ever wanted. My head wonders if there is a list for distributing blessings, whereby if your name misses from it count yourself not lucky😁 because the rate at which some of us suffer is too much. The lesson that I have learnt when it comes to making plans for yourself is: make plans, do what you are supposed to do to achieve the plans, but have an open mind when it comes to the outcome (People may plan all kinds of things but the Lord’s will is going to be done,Proverbs 19:21).

You graduate but your life seems to be stagnant compared to that of your friend’s. No progress no nothing while people are making moves to being managers. You ask yourself questions like where you went wrong but looking at things around, you are just fine; if it’s prayer you pray so hard, if its learning you try to at least learn something in a day-you aren’t lazy ,you apply for every job that comes your way not minding your level of education because the only thing you want is some cash to at least sort the landlord and buy some food. 

It always reaches a point where the degree you have doesn’t make sense. “Anything will work for me,” you say. You finally get a job and find that the workmate seated next to you is a form four leaver waiting to join campus- such an humiliation! (you think to yourself). What goes into your head is what’s the point of wasting four years on campus when you can get a job straight out of high school. You get really mad, your ego crashes with no traces. You talk to a friend and she encourages you, “It is for a start, more is coming your way”.

The question is when will that be? You swallow everything so forcefully and give the job your best shot as you gaze over the ajar window not to miss out on a passing employer in case one passes by. Such is life!

You compare your salary with the tones of money your mum could send you to pay your campus fees and just laugh at how ridiculous and absurd it is. What do parents think and how do they feel when we fail to get the good jobs after sacrificing everything to pay for our schooling? I know they take us as ungrateful beings but somethings are beyond our control. One day, I promise, one day, things will work out and we will make you proud- it is about time, patience and waiting for God’s will to be done. In the meantime, please, bear with us.

A while ago I thought if God could write off some people’s problems and promise them lives full of happiness and joy, they will be grateful.I have seen people who have really suffered most of their lives and there is no hope of any miracle happening anytime soon. 

It saddens the heart when you work really hard to get yourself a well paying job or get yourself into a good secondary school or start living the best of your life then out of nowhere something happens; something that changes you, and changes the orientation of your life: you later lose your job, you stop going to school, you die etc. -everything stops and you start from nothing. 

All the things you ever did becomes vanity. When Solomon says meaningless meaningless , everything is meaningless, it resonates well with you. If only life could alert people on the tragedies awaiting. God could you please give them a chance to go back to their normal life and kiss it goodbye before everything changes? It can be a huge favor. My prayer is that one day or someday, they will get back their lives, and enjoy the less it can offer.

What amazes me is how strong the people are, and how happy they are amidst everything which is so encouraging. Oftenly we are reminded of patience and trust in God. Most times it doesn’t work because we are wired to want quick things, and if that doesn’t happen we move to the next and to the next, at the end of the day we end up with nothing(sad). When pursuing life please note that you will never get what you want. Be hopeful, give up not, pray hard.